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It's Christmas Again!!

2006-12-13T13:52:00.000+08:00

Dear readers, I'm presenting to you my homemade Christmas treats. Quality ingredients. No worries, they are all tried and tested recipies - Tested by ME! and some of my lucky friends.Do show me some support yah?

On top of the list above, I also make regular cookies at

$6 for 10 pcs (approx 2.5 inches wide)

$4 for 12 pcs (approx 1.5 inches wide)

Please allow 3 days upon order for the items to be ready.

Self collection at :

Bukit Batok MRT

Yew Tee Mrt+

Email raider_fangz@hotmail.com to order

取代

2006-11-28T11:46:00.000+08:00

This was written, inspired by a friend's experiences.

取代

我问了一定不好受
但我很想知道
到底是谁取代了我

晚上的寂寞困着我
星星都取笑我
哭泣是谁代替了我

你转的好快，换的太绝
冷漠到我无法呼吸
是谁请你告诉我
是谁取代了我

没有人能代替你

一瞬间把你的礼物打碎
一支手把我的心握紧

你转的好快，换的太绝
冷漠到我无法忍受
是谁快，告诉我
是谁取代了我

怀疑我没被取代因为根本就不是我

天天

2006-10-21T00:18:00.000+08:00

With a slightly more clear direction on this blog, here's our (actually, just her) cover for download.

Please right click here and save.

copyrights belong to the original owners, not for redistribution and/or profit

Horizons

2006-07-20T22:38:00.000+08:00

Concave Scream's new album is out. I first heard this song at Baybeats 2005, where we all called the then nameless song "Rain Rain Go Away".

Here's the lyrics.

It's been a long time,
It's been a long time coming,
Held my breadth too long,
got to get back to the surface.

Rain rain, go away,
bring back the sun.

It's been a long road,
Seasons past chasing horizons,
It's been a long road,
Know it never could last forever.

Rain rain, go away,
bring back the sun.
Rain rain, go away,
bring back the sun.

Let the rain wash away x4

On a different note, active posting for this blog is back!

Cat Fight.. literally

2006-05-06T01:17:00.000+08:00

This was my study mate throughout the exam. A very distracting one.

The distraction has already begun..

First strike on my hand..

A second attack so swift that the camera couldn't catch up!

One last pose for the fans.. haha..

For those with the keen eye.. a cat toy that's the colour of my Bishop.
Could it be fate?
I got that toy during my JC days (2003) when me and Shena was shopping at Holland V Action City.. cool..

2006-03-18T17:33:00.000+08:00

My japanese name is 原 Hara (wilderness) 明日香 Asuka (fragrance of the bright day).
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So am I supposed to be a chirpy person, or someone that resonate such a quality. Got to work on that, I think most of the time I'm more moody than chirpy.

歩

2006-03-13T21:11:00.000+08:00

My japanese name is 原 Hara (wilderness) 歩 Ayumi (walk, deeper meaning: walk your own way).
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I realised that for many combis I used, regardless of whether lee is in front or behind, it's always 歩 at the end.

Maybe God is saying, look girl, quit stalling in fear, quit stalling at all. Walk the path I've shown you.

Romans 8:31 - If God is for us, who can be against us?

For He is Lord.

No it's not

2006-03-03T22:03:00.000+08:00

About the sex video, my friend from KL specially msned me just for that. Hahaha.

And the last post was done by me! So you also gotta post girl... and for now I'm taking a break due to my graduating exams. I will be back.

Sex Sells

2006-03-03T17:05:00.000+08:00

This blog dying.

Many would have heard about the Tammy Leong incident. I mean "EVERYONE!" Quite distastefully, the video has been circulated all the way to our friendly neighbor Malaysia. News that its going to come out in DVD format and a range of Tammy Leong tee shirts will be out too.. beastly. Sex does sell.. sadly.

This poor girl is really quite hated by that person who took her phone. Well, perhaps in a way, what goes around comes around. So kids, don't do bad things to others.

Quoted from a friend.." hey, she's like Paris Hilton of SG! Just that she does not have many millions waiting for her."

Sadly for her, this is not the US. In a way, she became an overnight celebrity. BUT, that's also the end of her future in Singapore. I wonder if the school has expelled her already? I don't know. I just hope all the best for her. Well, you see, the people deciding to expel her would most certainly has done what she did in the video. It's natural what!

So what's this fuss all about? Was Singapore not trying to get its citizens to make more babies? Giving us the five day week to stay home, relax, and make babies?

Such news in the US probably wont be worth a few alphabets in the papers or on the internet. In the measly tiny Singapore, headlines.

googlism

2006-01-19T11:47:00.000+08:00

check this out.

my faves:

lee is here
lee is just one more example of fbi misdirection
lee is open
lee is outrageous
lee is free
lee is hot
lee is finding support for opposition to military action
lee is an object lesson (huh??)
lee is a cock (wahahahahahahahahha)
lee is annoyed too
lee is one of people's 50 most beautiful (ya right)
lee is god (of course not God, but a "god" in human terms...)
lee is gone but not forgotten
lee is real
lee is charming (proverbs 31:30)
lee is cool
lee is a chucker
lee is back at work (but not working. blogging. haha)
lee is lone voice against violence
lee is me
lee is obviously more
lee is doing fine

too many to write.. these are just a few I chose. wah damn funny.

24 hours

2006-01-12T15:42:00.000+08:00

I thought, if I have only 24 hours left to live....

Seriously, as a perfectly sane human being, I'd just freak out. Or I'll be super happy freaking out. On one hand I will soon see Him, on the other fear seeing Him. 'Cause He is to be feared. (haha.. crappy)

But if I'm thinking of it from a speculative point of view, hypothetically speaking, I'd want to do many things (if I still have control over my limbs and tongue). I want to tell the my most loved ones I love them. And to remember me after I'm gone. Hand my cat to someone who cares well for cats. Kiss the guy I like (if there's one). Haha. Maybe go for a ride in a BMW 6 series convertible without a license. WoohOO~

BMW 6 Series Convertible

tomorrow

2006-01-11T15:47:00.000+08:00

I think... if you know that you're going to die tomorrow, what would you be thinking these 24 hours?

surely, you don't want to regret. =)

A Close

2006-01-10T23:06:00.000+08:00

The episode closed without much drama thankfully. I feel I'm at times too critical a person. I spend so much time and effort making sure I do the right things and also trying to make other people do the right thing as well. I realize I am only making myself and other people miserable.

People make their own choices. The only thing that's important is to not regret making that decision someday in the future.

Yes, the key is to have no regrets, 'cause life's too short for that. (Cliche, I know :x)

In response

2006-01-04T00:08:00.000+08:00

As per other Lee's post, I got thinking... how could I best answer this agonising question, especially when I've sort of given up sometimes?

to be perfectly honest: I met R when I was still with A. The only difference was that I knew I wanted to marry A. If I met R a year earlier, yes, I would have gone out with the both of them. Same thing with Serene. The only difference for this was I had Samuel to slap me awake (thank God for him) and Serene would never listen to me. I was the Pot and Serene was the Kettle.

Sometimes, sexuality comes into play, hormones rage. Yes you're her age too, but you're not her. Thank God you're not. You have more sense than me. I've done a many dirty deeds that I will still slap myself for in 20 years to come. These will haunt me forever and help me make the "right" decisions now and in the future: I've adopted the rule of if it'll haunt me in that way, it's probably not worth it.

God plays a big factor too, of course. I shan't go into that for now because I cannot gather the intellectual strength to argue... ever since I was 20 I think. Damn it.

Let's not go into "all (insert factor here) have no (insert determinating value/moral)". It's always personal.

No one should sleep with anyone they don't love. It's not called Making Love for nothing. And foreplay up to it (or petting to someone although I always thought it crass). But you can't force your opinions on people, unfortunately, especially when they just need a big knock on their head. You can only pray for them, be there for them even if it hurts, especially if it hurts, and tell them what they can do, should do only when they ask for it. You can put well intentioned words in the right places, like offering to drop them home when you know they have had too much to drink, by calling them to make sure they reach home, by telling them it's ok.

Because in the end, sometimes, the only thing we can do besides pray, is to let them know we're there for them all the way. There's really nothing else.

It's just me, maybe. I'm a bit tired. Tired of it all, but still have to go on. Still have to slap myself to stop myself from berating her. From killing myself. From irritating everyone to death. Sorry for the intellectual shortcut.. maybe I'm just lousy. Argh.

You're doing well, you're doing great... You're His.

Burning Question

2005-12-30T15:44:00.000+08:00

How should a woman behave in the context of today's social values (if there still exist any)?

Recently, a female friend's behaviour triggered many questions in my puny and always-malfunctioning brain.

The setting was at a club, celebrating another girl friend's 21st birthday. Everything was still alright, well as usual, until a few characters got drunk and wasted on the dance floor.

She blurted out to me that she has something on with this common guy friend at the bar while waiting for her drink. Apparently, she was a little tipsy. I felt disgusted nonetheless because I knew she has a boyfriend.

I walked away from the bar and went back to join my other friends. Well, I decided to overlook it since, well, she is rather drunk. A few hours later, she was found hugging and carassing that guy. I was utterly upset because it confirmed my disappointment in her. Suddenly she lost all respect from me. This is something I cannot talk about on my own blog. I feel frustrated. Not because I was lesbian (like one of my homo guy friend suggested) . But as a friend. I realised maybe she doesn't have values. Or rather most girls today don't have values.

I thought maybe I am still living in the stone age, the old spinster going on forever that girls should be good. Maybe the people today have no regard for consequences. How would the boyfriend think? Would you like to know your partner has done something like that to you?

I was told she does not like that guy she was carassing. Okay. I am so convinced. There are some things you cannot get away with just because you were drunk.

Fellow Lee, enlighten me.

Conversation(s)

2005-12-28T17:22:00.000+08:00

Heya, overly neglected blog. What's up?

Me? Oh, nothing much. Ya, still trying to piece my life together. I think some things will never change unless we can just force ourselves to make it better. I read her blog, and it broke my heart to see that after all that shit, she's still living for BGR. I mean, how silly is it when your selfworth is based on someone you have sex with from time to time and "love"? Then I really hope that's true love for her this time. I give up man...

No I didn't do anything crazy for Christmas. Slept quite some... old liao, not like the other Lee can tahan so long. Got to know someone though, but after a couple of MSN conversations, he seemed to drift and then in his blog he can write "(lack of) luck in love" or something like this.

I finally am starting to clear my room. Ya, hope to find a spot to be able to play my guitar. I miss jamming with the other Lee, with her stubborness (sometimes I end up giving in cos I see myself in her, other times she gives in without saying anything). We still have a great music chemistry. Other stuff too, business stuff, still owe Vik his proposal haha. He asked me to work for him, and I know if I want, I can just go.. but nah. For now, familiarity may breed comtempt. We best work in F&B environments.

What? Oh, what 2006 holds for me? I don't know... what do you think? Hey 2006! What are you going to do for me? What, a secret? Ah well.. I'm always the last one to know for anything anyways.

Irony

2005-11-18T13:55:00.000+08:00

Unending joy

2005-11-07T00:08:00.000+08:00

Westin just msned me about his joy. He had been going some rough patches lately, but thank God! He will see us through. =)

One of my highlights this year is seeing him grow closer to Him. =)

Hello Kitty

2005-10-28T10:25:00.000+08:00

I picked a kitten up that day and now it's with the other Lee. She's just housing it for the moment. Here's the text from the post from her blog.

"Anyone keen on keeping a kitten? Its only about few weeks old... black mostly with a tiny white collar. It looks like a "priest / bishop" of some sort when you imagine the little white collar. Incredibly cute even though its black.. okay okay.. no discrimination and no stereotyping k.. keke.. love to keep it for myself but unless I can convince my dad. But that's like 90% impossible. I'm holding it with me for about a week or so till I can find a good owner for it.

Super duper cute. And obedient.

If anyone can spare a little room for it in the house PLEASE contact me k!

Almost forgot to add, it has already done a check up at the vet, so its clean... =)"

Please, it needs a home. It was abandoned - we found it in a box. And it's very small - the size of my palm.

Please ask around. Spread this request around.

Erm

2005-10-10T10:44:00.000+08:00

You could sign in using your own alias.. let's amend these some other time after your exams.

Going to move soon! =) can use my place as a jamming ground... before the cats move in. Or else.. hahaha you can hear my cats "mewing" along!

Fats and Pills

2005-10-07T22:34:00.000+08:00

Finally Lee has answered my call to "say something" in this space here.. I already have something I want to post about. cant wait for the end of my exams.

Sloth is my grEAtest sin.. Need to get in shape. *YELLS* I dun wanna be pear-shaped anymore!

The first minor debate here. Pills seems like the easiest way out of this fat issue here. Not the healthiest one though.. I have friends asking for "prescribed medication" from doctors to help them slim down. Is it right for doctors to do so? (assuming fatness is not life-threatening)

getting this party started

2005-10-04T23:00:00.000+08:00

as usual, I've procastinated to the point of irritation of the other lee. sorry dear, I'm just this irritating. I've sent the members email and soon we can start blogging with our own accounts.

watch these space fellas. promise something up soon.

Hello

2005-06-22T04:04:00.000+08:00

Hello ? hello?

Am I alone here?

Boring.

Plans never really materialise all the time.

Hope this wont be a flop.

Get well soon.

Songs...

2005-06-21T12:25:00.000+08:00

Lucie Silvas
(Breathe In)
What you're made of
It's too late

Avril Lavigne
(Let Go)
Mobile
My world
Things I'll never say
Nobody's Fool

Pink
(Missundaztood)
Misery feat. Steven Tyler

Natalie Imbruglia
(Left of the middle)
Torn

Liz Phair
(Liz Phair 2003)
Why can't I
Red Light Fever

Norah Jones & the Peter Malick Group
(New york city)
New York City
Heart of mine

Five for Fighting
(The Battle for everything)
NYC Weather Report
Nobody
Maybe I

Matchbox Twenty
(More than you think you are)
Soul
Hand me down
All I need

Sheryl Crow
(The Very Best of Sheryl Crow)
A change would do you good

3 Doors Down
Here without you

Christina Aguilera
(Stripped)
The voice within

First Steps

2005-06-14T10:38:00.000+08:00

Hey lee,

I just thought we have to start the ball rolling, or else it may never happen.. so here we are.

First up, lets get ourselves a name. The current one is "pending". Hopefully it will change pretty soon.

Next, the user id I have to give to u.. thru email k?

Also, I'd like to modify the blog.. to a different design. Hehe. Permission?

Thats about all. Anything u think u want to add just post k? haha